So, I decided that I needed a change of journals. And what better way to change than a self examination?

Here's so you all can get to know me just a little bit more, if you're interested.



Cons:
I'm slightly dysfunctional sometimes. When I'm upset, I tend to block other people out. When I get angry, I sometimes throw things, or break them. I can go a little overboard with accusations, too. I often jump to conclusions. When accused, I get offended and defensive. I don't like it when people yell at me, and will definitely yell back or tell them to back the fuck off. I'm a very jealous person. I often and easily feel neglected, which depresses me. I don't like feeling inferior to someone. I often lie about my feelings. (i.e, when I'm upset, and someone asks me if I'm okay, I will tell them I'm perfectly fine.) I CAN get violent. Even if it may not look like it. I don't like being violent, but if pushed, I am. I can be very selfish sometimes.

Pros:
I'm a very loving and caring person. Making people smile and feel better is something I enjoy very much. I absolutely LOVE helping a friend, or even a stranger, when they're in a tight spot. I hate seeing people cry, and will do ridiculous things to make them smile. I'm a loyal friend, and very protective of my friends and their feelings. I can be a little ball of sunshine, but haven't recently been one. I laugh a lot, because I find many things funny. Also because I'm very ticklish and my boyfriend (Dom) is a butt and enjoys tickling me. But that's okay, because I get him back. I'm pretty active. I love playing soccer, but in my off-time, I enjoy spending time with Dom the most. Of course, I love my friends and will not hesitate to spend a day with them if they want to see me. I don't have very high self-esteem, but my friends think I'm beautiful, and my boyfriend loves everything about me, so I guess I'll have to deal with not being the prettiest girl on earth. X3 I'm outgoing, and usually love meeting people. However, there are some people who, upon first meeting, I get very shy around. For example, Dom had to pick me up and carry me into the living room so I could meet his grandma and aunt. I trust people easily.

I love to sing, even if I may not have the best voice, and even though I'm no good at it, I do enjoy dancing. (Dom shut up, I can't dance). I'm a child at heart, and love watching old cartoons, and Disney movies are my guilty pleasure. I love making farting sounds with my mouth and hands, and giggle about it. I make funny faces at myself in the mirror, and often laugh at myself. I'm empathetic and sympathetic. I try to understand other peoples' situations, and feel their pain.

I enjoy coloring with crayons in disney books, and I play nursery rhymes on the piano. I have a Magna Doodle, and I absolutely love it.

I don't want to be like anyone else, even if I'm not always loving myself. I have my own style, whatever that is. I wear whatever I want on whatever particular day. I like to wear and do things other people wouldn't, but I don't always appreciate the strange and odd looks I sometimes get.

I love Dom, with all my heart. He knows who I am, and what I'm all about. He can read me like a book, and he knows immediately if something's wrong. He's stuck with me through my worst and best times, and he's never failed to make me smile. He always sees the good in me, even when I can't see it. I don't always know why he loves me like he does, but I guess I don't really have to know. Because he loves me for me, and that's all I could ever ask for. I know he'd do anything for me if I needed him, and not many people are so loyal. He makes me feel like the most important person in the world, and I know I'm very special to him. I know I'm his best friend in the world. I can tell him everything and anything. I'm not embarrassed to tell him something personal, or maybe even silly. He doesn't give me those weird looks that make me feel like the odd one out. And he makes me feel loved, and like I belong. And for everything you've done for me, Dom...thank you. You have no idea how much you mean to me, and how much I love you.